I Am There / Spiders on the Brain / Of Surrender - A.J. Huffman


I Am There

different shades of insanity, and 

none of them are exact

                                     ly flattering.

I whisper to shadows, laugh

when they refuse

                             to whisper back.

I tape my mind

together with invisible dreams

that look like lies but sparkle 

like diamonds—

                            I have cut myself

too many times on their edges.  My own

have gone soft, eroded by ghosts of pasts

I have effectively forgotten.  On purpose,

I change my name (daily—to match

my eyes and the number of stars 

I see in morning’s sky).

                                        I cry

in empty corners of crowded rooms.

I am catastrophe—my legacy,

the very definition of disaster.

I live

         in perpetual motion

         and mess.

Spiders on the Brain

I dream a stream of robotic

arachnids with razored legs.

They are jaggedly jousting their way

around.  Listening for the sound of the lock

on the backdoor of my mind, I peek through

the keyhole to catch them

shimmying their way down my spine.

Of Surrender





                rather than



                       to become


possession of


victor’s hands







About the Author

A.J. HUFFMAN has published eleven solo chapbooks and one joint chapbook through various small presses. Her new poetry collections, Another Blood Jet (Eldritch Press), A Few Bullets Short of Home (mgv2>publishing), Butchery of the Innocent (Scars Publications) and Degeneration (Pink Girl Ink) are now available from their respective publishers and amazon.com. She has an additional poetry collection forthcoming: A Bizarre Burning of Bees (Transcendent Zero Press). Huffman is a three-time Pushcart Prize nominee, a two-time Best of Net nominee, and has published over 2300 poems in various national and international journals, including Labletter, The James Dickey Review, Bone Orchard, EgoPHobia, and Kritya. She is also the founding editor of Kind of a Hurricane Press.

Website: http://www.kindofahurricanepress.com